So Karen and I are doing a bible study called “Freedom” at our church this summer and I’ve had a breakthrough that I feel may help others who struggle like me. I am typing raw right now and this may not flow perfectly so I apologize, but you will see why. I’ve realized that I’ve given people way too much credit in the issues that have plagued me. I have been attaching faces to my hurt for so long that I almost automatically plaster one on every offense that I have. In every cut, I see the image of the person involved.
I’ve realized that all of these offenses and “cuts” have worked together over my lifetime to create a negative spirit in my mind that tries to define who and what I am at times of weakness. It is amazing how keen and sly the enemy is and how intentional he is at placing different people in our lives who commit the same offense, but urges us to burn an image of that person into the offense. This way our focus has shifted from the real problems of addiction, abuse, anger, greed, guilt, pride, etc. to the people who committed the offense! Some of these people may not even know they offended you or even care!!!! The enemy’s perfect plan is to have us flounder in our sin, circumstances or bitterness to become miserable and ineffective.
Imagine you are in a boat fishing and it springs a small leak and all you have to bail out water are your hands. You cup your hands together and throw water out of the boat at the same rate it is coming in. This is where the devil wants you. You are trapped by your circumstances and caught in a cycle where you feel you can’t quit bailing out or the boat will fill up with water and sink. You are hopeless. This is the devil’s utopia. He wants you paralyzed by fear and hopelessness.
OK, so now what? Let me give you a scripture that smacked me good when it came to me being caught in these cycles:
“Do not remember the former things,
Nor consider the things of old.
Behold, I will do a new thing,
Now it shall spring forth;
Shall you not know it?
I will even make a road in the wilderness
And rivers in the desert.Isaiah 43:18-19 NKJV
The NIV (A different version of the same scripture):
This is what the Lord says—
he who made a way through the sea,
a path through the mighty waters.
He has given you and me a road out of the wilderness and the desert. You just need to call on Him. Call on Him when your boat is filling up with water.
When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all. He keeps all his bones; not one of them is broken.